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Username | Lizzigator | ||
Status | active | ||
Joined | Mar 03, 2007 | ||
Location | Louisiana | ||
Interests | Drawing, Spacing out.. eating.. yeeah.. | ||
Website / Gallery | http://www.gaiaonline.com/profile/index.php?view=profile.ShowProfile&item=6516429 | ||
Occupation | pfft.. | ||
Biography |
On the ground I lay, Motionless in pain. I can see my life, Flashing before my eyes. Dead I fall asleep, Is this still a dream? Wake me up, I'm living a nightmare. I will not die, I will survive. I will not die, I'll wait here for you. I feel alive, When you're beside me. I will not die, I'll wait here for you. In my Time of Dying. I don't have a label, And I don't need one. I'm not gonna put up with you labeling me either. I know i'm not perfect, And I don't try to be. So don't point it out. You don't know who I am, And you don't need to. Love hurts, people die, they move on, they forget, they go away. People hurt people. They act selfishly. I dont know why exactly everyones looking for someone. Be it chemical, spirital, or social in nature. Not gonna waste my time on why. The nitty gritty of it all is that everyone is looking for someone. The answer is simple. Dont be so lazy. You can either learn to be content in being alone Though you really would just be fooling yourself. Or you can get up, and have the strength it takes to keep going. Beautiful people will never settle for less than another beautiful person. So either learn to be satisfied with someone who isnt so physically appealing. Or take the steps and put the energy into becoming more physically appealing. Cut your hair, work out, lose the weight, eat right. Get the acne medication and use it properly, whatever. Stop bitching because you arent loved, and learn how to be loved, or lower your own standards. You will not find the person for you quickly or easily. Not ever. A pearl diver goes to the bottom, and sifts though one thousand clams. Once he finds his pearl, he isnt worried about how much he hurt his hand, or how tired he got from sifting though clams. He is happy once he finds his pearl. It may take days or years. But if he stops picking up clams before he finds the pearl He will never find that special clam. He will never discover that wonderful treasure inside. I believe a person should be judged by their heart and soul as well, rather than their body and face. Too bad we are all human, and are guilty of letting the superficial influence our judgement. Im as guilty as everyone. Dont hate the world. Unless your willing to hate yourself as well. For you also are guilty of letting someones face guide your heart. And that my friends, Is reality. Live with it or live in a fairytale. In the silence a lonesome heart beats. Steadily, softly, ever longing to be still. In this soul a black whole festers. Empty, frozen, ever longing to be filled. I reach out in the dead of night, a quiet mind that longs for light. I mask my face behind the makeup. Hiding me behind a jesters cap. I wish I could show my acquaintances, strangers, friends, all I am, the depths of my soul. Instead I laugh and act a fool. Instead I show them I’m just a fool. If they could see me as I see me, maybe they would love me too. All they see is just a jester, a strange dark man, who just acts weird. A paradox always rejected, neglected once the lights go out and the stage is clear. Rejections stings, so deeply stabbing. Its what I fear, in myself I doubt. Underneath the mask I’m safer. The cold shoulder falls to that fool, not me. I wonder if Ill ever shake him, if Ill learn to just let myself be me. I doubt that day well ever see, of confidence I suffer drought. When in your life all you’ve know in failure, and the pain from being pushed away. You lose all hope of feeling warmth, grow a shell and in it stay. |
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